What’s Your Motive?

“Create in me a clean heart, O God, Renew a right spirit within me.” Psalms 51:10

Wouldn’t that be a great name for a game show, “What’s Your Motive?” Motives are a sort of mind game, aren’t they? It’s ultimately about our intention to have you believe something or to acquire something we want. Motives can be good or bad, wrong or right, pure or impure.

Have you ever known someone always seems to operate with a hidden agenda? You know the one. The one who is “fake”. The one you can’t trust. The one who whenever he/she is talking is more than likely lying to you? Do you remember when you first found out this person had a hidden agenda? You figured out this person’s method of operation was tricking you and deceiving you for their personal gain? Maybe it was subtle. Maybe they just wanted you to believe something that they are not. You feel deceived, betrayed….like you got kicked in the stomach.

You see, I was one of those people. In active addition, that was my M.O. I wasn’t like that when sober though. No where near it. As days of sobriety started to add up, God revealed to me the subconscious manipulation methods I used in order to get people to do what I wanted. He showed me how I could be subtle in my intent and that my motive was not pure. I wasn’t trying to hurt anybody. It had become a learned behavior and half the time I wasn’t even aware of it.

So I asked God to help me stay sensitive to the motives of my Heart. I ask God often to bring to the surface the little bits & pieces of impurity that may have lingered or have worked their way back in again.

“Grant me purity of heart, that I may honor you.” – Psalms 86:11

God doesn’t reveal these things to me so I will feel bad about myself. That is what the devil wants me to believe. I use to live in a state of guilt and shame (see my post about forgiving myself). God knew my self esteem was unstable back then, and in time I would heal. But now He reveals the condition of my heart so that I can repent any unconfessed sin. I want Him to. I ask Him for this. He reveals my subtle motives so that I can become pleasing in His sight. So I can change. So I can honor Him.

God knows my heart. He knows me better than I do. God knows that I really don’t want to hurt people or even hurt myself. He knows I wanted to change and I wanted to please Him but I couldn’t do that until He showed me the motives of my heart. It’s important that I keep my motives in check on a daily basis. Without purity of hear, I won’t be able to move forward to what the Lord wants for my life.

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Author: Sober Chick

My name is Michele. I am 48 years old, I am a born again Christian, and a recovering alcoholic and addict. I got saved when I was 16 years old. Starting at 17 I tried alcohol for the 1st time and got drunk. At 18 I tried my 1st drug and since then I have been battling addictions my whole adult life. As my classmates were going to college after graduation, I was preparing myself to party. I was a responsible kid, kept a job, paid my car payment on time and built up really good credit. You have to understand something about me....I'm an all or nothing type of person. I would envy my friends who did things in moderation and had the ability to just say no. My story in a nutshell is basically this .....on the outside it appears I have it all together but on the inside I was always "lost". I had to put myself in the gutter before I openly admitted I had a big addiction problem. Now I want to serve the Lord and fulfill His purpose for my life. His purpose is really what I have been chasing all along. Never feeling complete, my footing never steady. What I needed was to surrender the strongholds in my life and let God take over. My hunger for God and His word is stronger than any other craving that comes up. My blog will be mostly just about me, what I am going through, what I'm learning, and how God is working in my life. It will be a tremendous blessing if anything I write can help another person come to Christ and come to know of the amazing and endless love God has for all of us and how he can change us from a life of searching and chasing to giving us a life of peace, joy and purpose.

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